33 Weeks 4 days! Preterm labor SUCKS!

I was feeling pretty good before. Last night some things happened personally that started to stress me out. I just wish people would realize that when we said NO STRESS that meant NO STRESS. There are people in our lives that cause a lot of stress. We have chosen to leave it where it be and not worry about them. Afterall, this isn’t about anyone but OUR family. All other family members are just going to have to get over it. Instead they started on Stoney last night. I felt so terrible because he was doing great and honestly I need him to keep doing great! Who else am I supposed to lean on right now? When he came in off the phone and then continued getting text messages, you could just see all his strength and everything taken from him. This was exactly why he didn’t want to tell these people what was going on in the first place! My heart ached for him. But as the night progressed and I noticed he just wasn’t himself, it began to upset me even more and in the end I was the one stressed out about it. I am still incredibly stressed over it. We are away from our daughters. We are away from our home. Of course we are blessed to be able to stay with his brother who is the best. But this is still a very stressful time for us. He is not working his second job and he is stressed over that. He is obviously worried about Myles and myself. Plus he is trying to stay up beat and positive for me. He is a fantastic man and I love him dearly. But to see him stressing over nonsense stuff is really going to upset me. I am already moody with being off my feet and missing the girls. Plus the pain on top of it and the stress of how healthy is this little boy going to be. I am going to start firing off like a canon and it’s not going to be pretty! I am hoping by getting this off my chest to my friends here, it will help me be able to finally relax about it. For now this is my sounding board. My safe place. The best part about it, if you don’t like what I have to say than seriously bug off!

Now that I said what I needed to say! I will let you all in on what’s going on today. About 3 am I woke up contracting. No I don’t know how far apart they are because I’m not timing them and I just try to breathe and focus on other things to try to relax. I know I’m not feeling all of them because well that’s just how it is for me. We have decided that we will go to the hospital when they put me into tears or I just have a feeling that I need to go in. So far my instinct has not failed me yet when it comes to knowing the right time to go in. Stoney woke up and got me some water and rubbed my back. I changed positions over and over just to get comfortable. I finally went in to take a bath. I couldn’t feel them as badly in the bath but the minute I got out, I could tell I was feeling them still. I went and laid back down and played on Facebook and the Blackberry for a bit. Finally at about 6:30 I was so exhausted that I finally was able to sleep. I knew that no matter what my body needed the sleep so I can stay strong. I woke up a few hours later and the contractions weren’t as bad and they were back to the way they were before. I had already decided if they kept going or were any stronger, I’d go in. My biggest fear right now is getting stuck in the hospital for weeks and not having the strength my body needs. I am comfortable where I am at and actually able to sleep. If I don’t feel a contraction, then I don’t know it’s there. That is a huge bonus cause I am not watching the monitors for them. I can also relax because I am not hooked up to the fetal monitor! Let’s just say Myles is so low that we have the bottom of the monitor on my thigh so it can be right next to my pelvic bone. Just a week ago we were getting his heart rate up by my belly button. If I moved or if he moved just the slightest, we’d have to adjust the monitor which was not easy being that low!

The food is also a huge YUCK. I have no appetite. If something sounds good, then I try to eat it so I can keep my energy up. I eat small meals. But when you don’t have a choice or you have to tell them what you want for dinner right after breakfast, it’s not easy! I don’t know what I’m going to want 5 minutes from now! So Stoney usually goes to eat a lot. That racks up! Well I just got the call! Grandma is on her way over with the girls. I can’t wait to see them. Thank you to everyone praying for us. It truly means the world to us!

Somewhat free and counting the days til Myles can be born safely

33 weeks 3 days! I am counting the days! You will have to excuse any spelling errors or grammar errors. Plus I can’t justify this thing like I like to! So I got discharged yesterday with strict orders to bedrest and no stress. We are staying with his brother and that’s helping a lot. My grandma arrives today to take care of girls. I miss them like crazy! Its hard to be away from them. I will get to see them soon.
I think I am gonna attempt to knit a hat today! I will have to add pictures later. Should be interesting! I was contracting hard and fast last night but they stopped and I had a good nights sleep. So much better than the hospital! Well Stoney is off today to pick some stuff up for me at home. So I need to get a list together!
Thanks everyone. Also thank you to Kori from Princess Hairstyles for coming to visit. Thanks to the Crackdot moms including Kori for the gifts! They are so cute! I have to say I have been blessed!

Now the question? If you were put on bedrest how did you survive bedrest?

I have decided to keep an ongoing list of essential items that are necessary when you are put in a situation such as mine. Being on bedrest either in the hospital or somewhere near the hospital is not easy. None of my things are here. I had my hospital bag planned so that was easy but now what do I do now? I obviously will need a larger size of personal body care products! So as I am going through this, I will be putting together a post to help others out. This list will also help others that would like to send a bedridden mom a care basket! Trust me that is very much appreciated!

33 weeks praying for one day at a time

Ok my poor blog will now be quiet for awhile. Tuesday I turned 33 weeks. Are you wondering where my belly pic is? Well it won’t be up for awhile. I began having contractions that day. Of course Stoney left to the academy for training that morning. He was not to return intil Thursday night. Myles had other plans. My friend drove me to hospital. I was in denial. She was being real. She knew I wouldn’t be going home that night. Well she was right. I was closed and thick one week before. Tuesday I was 1 and 50% effaced. The contractions I thought were 15 minutes apart were actually 2. I just didn’t feel them. By the end of the night I was a 2. Wednesday I was a 2 and 60% effaced.
When I’m full term this meant having a baby in a few hours. So they are trying to avoid cervical checks to not stir stuff up. When I got here they did the fFn test. It came back positive. If it would have been negative it meant that I’m good for 2 weeks. I got steroids for his lungs. Morphine for pain and brethine for contractions.
I’m currently getting procardia every 4 hours to stop contractions. I’m also on bathroom privileges only. I will be checked soon to see what the plan is. If I have any change I’m being transported to a different town. Right now I’m 50 miles from home and this will put us at 100 miles. If no change I can leave but I had to agree to terms. Strict bedrest, no caring for my girls, and stay in town. Luckily my brother in law said we can stay with him. So we don’t have to pay for a hotel. Basically we are looking at a few week stay whether he is born or not.
What this means for my blog? I will update when I can. All reviews and commitments are on hold. I am writing from my blackberry so I can’t give them my everything like they deserve. If you would like to be in touch you can comment here. You can also send me an email to hisminenours6@gmail.com I don’t have access to my blog email but working on that. You can also friend me on facebook. Facebook.com/gena.morris or twitter @themorrisbunch. I try to update them when I can. Thank you everyone. Your prayers are needed now!

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