I have been told over and over that my expectations were too high. I tried to lower my expectations because of that. Guess what I got in return? Something I didn’t want. Last year I made a list of what I expected in a relationship. It was easy for me to come up with.

• Honesty
• Faithfulness
• Godly
• Loves kids
• Communication
• Hard worker
• Funny
• Persistent
• Loves the outdoors
• No drinking
• Willing to help around the house
• Supportive
• Romantic
• Accepting of who I am
• Someone who enjoys the small things

I felt that these were all things that could be found in one person. I prayed over this list for months and thought that God was working in my ex husband’s heart. He quit drinking and started going to church with our family. He started making date night a priority. Then it all came crashing down and was suddenly gone. What I didn’t realize at that moment was that God was working. He just wasn’t working with the canvas that was already started. He was starting with a brand new canvas. The canvas started black and white like most canvases but he has slowly started adding color to that canvas and brightening my life. As the sunlight pours in, I am more appreciative of the God that has forgiven me. Seeing my children just as happy as I am, shows me that I am heading in the right direction. It is an incredible feeling! I will continue to pray for my expectations and let God lead me in the direction I need to go. He will continue to bless me over and over.